Pretentious

The man walked out of his lodge,

marching his steps along the small commoner village,

they said he was just an angler,

who chose to fish by a calm river,

though he was wise enough to conquer the sea,

where he could bring back much fortunes from.

carving much glory among his men.

But he would not mind,

for fear of tarnishing his little heart,

by the hideous proud.

For fear of himself being devoured

by the gluttonous fame.

And yet he was there casting his lure,

when his eyes were seeing beyond his glare,

across the blue yonder into the deepest sea,

"Maybe I should set my foot there one day?

No, this is more than enough."

Pretentious,

while that little heart was praying for a better day.

Exam Scenario

Dewan exam - dapat kertas soalan

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Oh, soalan ni. familiar. bagus, soalan pass year keluar. 

*Alhamdulillah*

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*mula draft-jawab*

*samar*

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Mula menggoreng.

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Gorengan lancar. Betul nih, yakin. 

Bila check balik jawapan:

bzzzzzztttt

Ku Mohon

Di lubuk hatiku terdalam

Ini yang ku pilih penuh keyakinan

Namun kadang bimbang menyerang

Sanggupkah melangkah ku terus berjalan

Saat badai menderaku

hinggah rapuh dan goyah

Tiada daya tuk bertahan

Hanya Engkau tempat berpegang

Berkatilah setiap semangat jiwa

tuk selalu berjuang di jalan Mu

Terjagalah hati yang kadang redup

Tertiup angin di duniawi

Gemerlap kilauan harta

takhta dan cinta manusia

yang menyesatkan

selamanya...

Saat hujan basahiku

penuh lumpur dan noda

dalam derai air mata

dengarlah permohonan ku

[Lyric of Ku Mohon - Firdaus]

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Lemahnya diri ini kerana membiarkan 'liver' ini hingga cirrhosis..

Oh Allah..

Please give me strength,

and guide my way..

إِيَّاكَ نَعۡبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسۡتَعِينُ

You know why?

Those who walked out of the school era with flying colours,

Often, mostly will end up in medical school.

A prestigious, glorious, glamorous field of study among those who excel.

One of the top choices.

Now and then,

we, medical student often complain,

"medicine is tough~"

then we say,

"pening la~ tak faham~ malas la study~zzzz"

and so we tell our juniors,

"nak ambil medic? adik kena prepare physical, mental & spiritual. sebab medic ni susah!"

And then the whines keep on going,

We get exhausted.

Feeling so down.

Thinking of giving up.

Starts questioning & blaming,

Why medicine is so damn hard?

Yes, medicine is HARD.

You know why?

لَقَدۡ خَلَقۡنَا ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ فِىٓ أَحۡسَنِ تَقۡوِيمٍ۬

We have certainly created man in the best of stature.

(At-Tin : 4)

Because you're studying Allah's BEST creation.

Now thank Allah for choosing you to dive into one of His greatest miracle.

الحمد لله

=)

Worn Out

A bright day,
yet you see it gloom.
The embracing warmth,
but you feel it froze.

You walk the day within shadow,
Trying hard to carve a smile,
But every attempt seems to be so hard,
everything is frozen.

You make excuses,
Mental block,
And so,
Your mind claims for an unwell body,
but the body blame over the exhausted soul.
And so both have shattered apart,
but no one realize,
it is the Iman that exhausts.

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Love hurt?
Macam kentut, nak lepaskan segan, bila tahan lama2 sakit perut.
huahuahua!
*masuk air*

Dark

We stroll down our path,

and often we are devoured by the darkness.

We are so lost within,

Some are engulfed forever,

Whilst some have found the light,

Escaping this dark hole of life.

Yet,

even we're freed from those shades,

These bright days ahead doesn't always shines,

Somehow, overcast,

by the shadows of our darkest side of life.

Because we once lived in our darkest days.

ٱللَّهُ وَلِىُّ ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ يُخۡرِجُهُم مِّنَ ٱلظُّلُمَـٰتِ إِلَى ٱلنُّورِ‌ۖ

وَٱلَّذِينَ كَفَرُوٓاْ أَوۡلِيَآؤُهُمُ ٱلطَّـٰغُوتُ يُخۡرِجُونَهُم مِّنَ ٱلنُّورِ إِلَى ٱلظُّلُمَـٰتِ‌ۗ

أُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ أَصۡحَـٰبُ ٱلنَّارِ‌ۖ هُمۡ فِيہَا خَـٰلِدُونَ

Allah is the ally of those who believe.

He brings them out from darknesses into the light.

And those who disbelieve - their allies are Taghut.

They take them out of the light into darknesses.

Those are the companions of the Fire; they will abide eternally therein.

(Al-Baqarah : 257)

Our Week.

A great quote found here.

So, let's share it.

Without Allah,

Our week would be :

Sinday

Mournday

Tearsday

Wasteday

Thirstday

Fightday

Shatterday

So~

Seven days without Allah

makes one weak!

رَبَّنَا لَا تُزِغۡ قُلُوبَنَا بَعۡدَ إِذۡ هَدَيۡتَنَا وَهَبۡ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحۡمَةً‌ۚ

إِنَّكَ أَنتَ ٱلۡوَهَّابُ

Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy.

Indeed, You are the Bestower.

['Ali Imran : 8]

Stolen

This possession of me,

So precious that it is stolen,

Perhaps accidentally taken,

yet I wish it will be kept forever,

because it is meant to be yours.

Lease

One day,

I will stand alone in the midst of this ageing world,

carrying none with me,

Having this frail hands hold to nothingness,

No longer shouldering those golds gallantly,

Those words that enlighten shall loss their shines.

Nor even a pair of magical legs that fly me to the sky.

Despair, definitely I will be.

But I shall let it be,

Don't mind it.

Because those were never meant to be mine.

Even every seconds of standing here up till now,

Is nothing more than just a lease.

Yes,

Everything is borrowed.

I possess nothing.

Winter.

Every blow of wind pierces deep into this bone.

And every single pain stings out of this bone

will be the memories of every single swing made.

And every words written on yellow, shall warm me and never fade.

Keeping me strong,

Always.

*no snow here in egypt. just winter mood.*

:P

Master

The moment you wield a sword master's blade

doesn't make you the master of sword dance.

While you call yourself a knight in the middle of crowd,

but you never know how to sheathe your blade,

you gain nothing but vain.

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You can simply call yourself superior than others because you're using superb equipment,

but you can't even master the basic equipments.

Careful~

xD

hmm~ steamboat~~ <3

Glory

Upon you're showered with the star of fame,

surrounded with shines of glory,

should you never gaze up upon the sky,

seeking for those glimpse dust of the night,

while you turn blind upon what lies beneath,

no longer hearing the echoes,

of the tail of zephyr,

which breeze you along your steps,

to fly up of where you've spread your elegant wings.

Should you forget your origin,

And you shall never even grasp those stars,

of what you've dreamed.

"And do not turn your cheek [in contempt] toward people and do not walk through the earth exultantly. Indeed, Allah does not like everyone self-deluded and boastful."

[Surah Luqman : 18]

Banyak

Banyak udang banyak garam,

banyak orang banyak ragam.

tapi bila terlebih garam jadi masin,

bila masin orang kata angau nak kahwin.

Ngeh.

Udang rich in proteins. Proteins will stimulate stomach juice secretion & emptying. Preparing for the incoming meal. That's why udang is sometime served as appetizer.

totally.

nothing.
it wasn't a plan,
conspiracy?
neither intentionally.

it was a COINCIDENCE.
totally.
a big one.
@_____@

Tersasar

Reticular Activation System.
atau secara mudah
RAS



Stress will activate RAS.
causing wakefulness.

study ketika musim peperiksaan
sungguh stress.
tergesa-gesa.
berlari-lari.

-RAS activated-

namun tetap terlena.
zzzz

Bila stress, kita mudah tersasar dari haluan utama. pergi ke collateral pathway pula. *dari perubatan sesat ke fotografi pula*

"Allahumma Ya muqallibal qulub, thabbit qulubana 'ala dinik wa to'atik"

oh. wujud lagi rupanya.

2011

hampir 1 tahun x bukak blog.
x sangka masih wujud.
terharu.

:')

tenis sejurus selepas selesai peperiksaan pemadam tekanan
-ini bukan penulis-

peperiksaan hal biasa.


man jadda wajada.
wa man zaro'a hasoda.

berusahalah.

@___@

kucing di lot parking

petang.
matahari agak terik hari ini. tp disebabkan angin musim sejuk bertiup, panas tidak terasa.
hari ini macam hari2 yg lain.
kelihatan orang2 tempatan keluar dari kediaman menuju ke jalan utama.
jalan utama penuh dgn butik2, restoran serta pusat membeli-belah.
aku hanya memerhati.
memasang mata dipinggir lot parking yg kelihatan seperti medan peperangan.

tiba-tiba muncul sesuatu yg sgguh menarik perhatianku.
2 lembaga yg kelihatan aneh.
tidak sama seperti manusia tempatan.

owh.. mungkinkah ini yg manusia tempatan sering sebut..
malizi..


malizi jalan bersama, seperti bersiar2.
seorang berambut lurus seorang lg kerinting sedikit.
kurus dan sederhana.
baju coklat dan baju putih.
masing2 mempunyai ciri2 fizikal yg berlawanan.

malizi baju putih membawa alatan pelik.
kotak hitam yg mempunyai terowong panjang.
kelihatan seperti meriam.
malizi berhenti berjalan.
mereka menatap rakanku yg sedang tidur2 ayam.


kemudian malizi putih mengangkat alatnya lalu mengacu pada kawanku.
rakan2 lain risau lalu berlari mencari perlindungan.
mungkinkah itu alat utk menangkap kami?
bukan.
malizi menjenguk belakang alatnya sambil menggeleng kepala.
raut wajah tidak puas hati terpancar.
kali ini malizi coklat pula yg memegang kotak hitam tersebut.
malizi mencangkung lalu berjalan itik ke arah aku.
suspens.
aku bersedia utk langkah seribu.
malizi memutar terowong pada kotak hitamnya.
semakin panjang kehadapan jadinya.
aku semakin resah. berdebar2.


tiba2 tuan penjaga lot parking menjerit.
malizi tersentak lalu toleh ke arah tuan penjaga parking.
penjaga parking menengking malizi dari jauh.
mungkin marah setelah melihat perbuatan pelik malizi yg seolah2 tidak pernah jumpa spesis kami.
batak.
serta mencurigakan.
malizi meneruskan perjalanan mereka.
aku lega.
terima kasih penjaga parking, kerana menyelamatkan nyawaku.

kurang.

setelah sekian lama menyepi.
akhirnya cuba utk mengaktifkan diri mengeblog.

masuk tahun 2.
hari baru.
silibus baru.
buku baru.
rumah baru.
gadget2 baru.

maka wang dalam akaun bank juga pada angka baru.
berkurang.
bayaran sewa rumah + ta`min . (mencecah ribu)
perkakas rumah + proses baik pulih (ratusan)
buku2 baru utk silibus baru. (ratusan)

"alat2 mainan" baru (bergantung kpd jenis)

antara "mainan" yg popular serta paling hebat mengikis pada hari ini,

kamera DSLR (Digital Single Lens Reflex).
baik nikon atau pun canon.

nikon D5000 a.k.a nini milik penconteng

penconteng kini telah menceburi bidang photography.
hasil kikisan wang oleh mainan tersebut baru2 ini :

>kit nikon D5000 --------------- RM2900
(lens,beg,memory card,tripod)

>monopod -------- LE 140 (RM94 +/-)

>hoya pro1D UV lens filter ------------- RM80

>nissin speedlite / flash Di622 ------------ rm350

>Nikkor AF-S 70-300mm Zoom lens -------------- USD $400 (RM1400)


jumlah = RM 4744

tiada dlm gamba : nissin Di622

kepada sesiapa yg ingin bermain dgn DSLR tp sayangkn wang anda,
fikir dahulu sebelum beli.

jika anda teringin memiliki DSLR kerana antaranya :

1. "wow, smart gile r gamba amik gune DSLR, ak pn nk beli gak r.."
2. "nmpk bergaya do pkai DSLR nih, mcm pro.. nk angkut 1..."
3. "canggih gile DSLR.. sedap angkut nih.."
4. "xtau nk watpe dgn duit ni.. byk sgt.. so beli DSLR pn ok gak.."

lupakan hasrat anda.
beli jika minat utk menceburi bidang photography DSLR.
betul2 minat.

tiada minat / minat hangat2 tahi ayam = menghakis kewangan -----> pembaziran

DSLR memerlukan teknik2 pengendalian yg betul.
jika sekadar point & shoot, lebih baik gunakan digital compact camera.



maksimakan semua kegunaan & manfaat sesuatu benda utk menjadikan ianya berbaloi.


*sebuah post utk membersihkan sawang dlm blog.*
*hanya merepek*

*antara hasil penconteng, klik sini*

sushi or sashimi, anyone??

Sushi and sashimi.
do they ring any bell?
indeed, yes. most of us are already very familiar with this infamous japanese cuisine.
some even have tried them out. (this include me,but not yet the sashimi..)
so, what comes across of your mind when you overheard of these two japanese food?
BINGO~ raw fish or seafood.

and the definition goes as:

sushi : japanese dish consisting of small balls or rolls of vinegar-flavoured cold rice served with a garnish of vegetables egg or raw seafood

sashimi : japanese dish of bite-sized pieces of raw fish eaten with soy sauce and horseradish paste (wasabi)

(from the dictionary of oxford - 10th edition)

agree? both of them become very well-known across the world for they are served as RAW dish.
so, have you ever heard the results,or more likely to be quoted as side-effects, of eating sushi and sashimi?

let's scroll down the page and observe with nicely focusing eyes~ =P

can't see anything? try the next one..


can you see the worms?? making the brain like their home.. >_<"

from the email I received, the man in the pictures is known as Shota Fujiwara, 80 years old.
he had complained of having extreme headaches for 3 years and was diagnosed to have loss his psychomotor ability (ability to originate body movement in conscious mental activity).

Via the CT-scan and X-ray test, worm "hideouts" were found underneath his scalp, fortunately still outside the skull. And the worm found is the from the parasite species of which they are found within the body of uncooked fish, both of sea and freshwater fishes.

the egg of this parasite and the adult itself can only be killed through heating in high temperature or easily said as cook. frying,steaming, bake, roast, saute'.. you name all the cooking style, it doesn't matter of which way, but as long as it is cook!

this little parasite can also be killed through freezing at the range of -10 to -20 degree Celsius, for the duration of at least 1 week!


so,the moral of the post is, pay attention to what you swallow into your stomach. this doesn't only restricted to sushi and sashimi, but whatever you eat, make sure it is cooked well. top prioritize cleanliness whenever or wherever you are.
as what is quoted by our beloved Prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H ,

"cleanliness is a part of the Iman (faith)."

so then, take care of yourself, watch out what you eat.
you may still eat sushi as you may choose the one without any raw seafood or meat.
(hehe.. since I actually love sushi, but not those with raws.. yuck~!)
but surely yes,do avoid from having sashimi as the cuisine itself is purposely served raw.. huhu

till the next post.

salam

p/s : *sorry, can't provide any scientific info of this parasite yet. will do more research on it,
insya Allah. (just done with microbiology exam, haven't learned about parasites yet.. hehe)

yet another pet..... meow~ meow~ >___>

24th may 2009

that's almost about a week after we met the trio kitties.
it was a shady evening,
I was walking into an alley which lead to the rear door of my hostel,
again, my ears caught those mournful sounds..
stopping my progression and looked around.
what would it be this time? box? plastic bags? or some sorts of tupperware??
the alley was quite dark as the dusk was approaching,
and those eager eyes rolled into a black space under a staircase.
rubbish, dust and some debris of the late renovation made in that area,
and something unusual was noticed its existence.


the pointer : kitty was found here, crying loud.. T__T


ahh.. there you go, a cute little kitty crying mournfully.
with it's loud meows despite the little body.
loud enough to break the silence engulfing the alley.
a thought popped up, could it be the trio?
nope, this one is about 0.25 times smaller,
with some patches of "red, blue and white" blended for the fur.

the little fella was eager due to the camera flash..
though its eyes were still closed and clogged..




ah, poor little kitty..
with a weak thought to bring it into the hostel,
as another thought of it's mommy might be around.
the two fought for awhile, so the decisive seconds ended with the mommy thought.
so I left it there.
perhaps waiting till tomorrow, as a confirmation of the mommy's absence.
see ya again kitty..


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kitty in new home of egg-tray walled



night crawled in.
it was after isya' prayer,
which the time allocation was around 10 pm.
one of 'we' underwent the same situation of mine in the evening.
*the 'we' mentioned in the last post*
yet the difference between us was that, his pity won,
and he decided to pick the little poor kitty.
sympathy won against him in total.
he fed it,
bathed it in such a "luxurious green bowl" (huh?!)

*@*^!%@#($!!*

prepared a nice, cozy bed within a bucket.
this time no more shredded egg trays.
and surprisingly, the little fellow won a big care.
caressed by the time it cry.
and let all the fear it carried left away.
as the calm flew by in grace.

oh well, hope there would be no ending of the trio for this little fellow.
grow up kitty,
with peace and love embracing you all the time.
that's the only wish could be enlighted.

>__>

*why all of the sudden,a lot of kitties abandoned nearby the hostel area?? without their mommy... somehow the locals and natives have lost their heart... *
*the terms red, blue and white, refers to the colour of cat fur theorically.. though we see those as orange, gray/dark gray and white respectively*

*to kepalakotak, this kitty somehow looks damn very nice if turned into tempura*

<__<



wallahu'alam